“I was held captive by Islam, and I wanted to be freed from that. I was blinded with so much hatred in my heart”.
“Allahu Akbar”, the crowd chanted, “Allahu Akbar”
The Muslim girl was confused and didn’t know what was going on in the large crowd until they were pushed to the front and saw a woman tied up, sitting on a box, and a man next to her uttering a traditional prayer.
The next thing she saw was, the man pulled out a gold-colored sword from his side and beheaded the woman. With her hand in her dad’s, the little girl began to tremble.
“If you don’t listen to the teachings we’re instilling in your life, this will happen to you one day,” her father told her sternly, as recounted in a One For Israel video.
Raised in Kuwait, a small oil-rich nation on the Persian Gulf whose population is 98% Muslim, two of her uncles are imams, and one is president of a mosque. Five times a day, she prayed.
She had to learn the Quran and the Hadith, memorizing vast portions in Arabic.
During her younger days she even entered a competition of reciting a long chapter in front of Islamic leaders and teachers. She was proud to win second place.
But her dad criticized her for not doing better.
“The word ‘Yehudi,’ which means Jew, was instilled in me as a bad word, as a cuss word,” she says. “Yehudis should not exist. They should be killed. I never thought to question why would I hate them. I never met Jewish people in my life. They never did anything to harm my family.
“I just hated them. Just the word brought hatred in my heart.”
“Most of my life, I was alone, by myself, alone,” she says. “I was a broken person in need for love from my family but I never received it from them.
“I tried to experience this love from Creator God, from Allah,” she adds. “In my prayer times, I prayed with my hands lifted up: ‘Please help my father to stop beating my mother. Please help my father to stop beating me.’ But no help came.
“God (Allah) is not a personable god to Muslims,” she says. “Allah does not say, ‘I love you,’ to Muslims.”
Then, Saddam Hussein and his Iraqi army overran Kuwait to take possession of its oil and start the unification process all Muslims idealize in the Quran. His soldiers raided homes, stole possessions, killed men and raped women.
Because of the carnage and suffering, her family applied for and was granted visas to the U.S. There her grandmother suffered a heart attack and two days later died at the hospital.
“I was devastated because I lost my best friend,” she remembers.
Her friend, Paula, seeing her saddened one day, asked her if she was OK. She burst into tears afresh.
“At that moment, only crying helped,” she says.
Paula embraced her and invited her to church.
“When I walked into this church, I experienced love and acceptance from these people like I’d never experience before,” she says. “They were fellowshipping together. The men and women were together. They didn’t have to be separate. No one was judging each other. They knew I was Muslim. They were so friendly to me.
“They were accepting of me and loving me, and that was really surprising to me,” she adds.
That day she heard about Yeshua, who heals the brokenhearted.
“First time I heard these words of freedom and healing and liberty, I felt desperate to be freed from bondage,” she says. “I was held captive by Islam, and I wanted to be freed from that. I was blinded with so much hatred in my heart.
“The darkness broke from my eyes,” she adds. “The veil came off my heart. I knew the decision I was making to leave Islam was a big decision. By Shariah law, Islamic law, it’s the death penalty. But I was desperate to know the Living God. That day I gave my life to be a follower of Jesus.”
When she went into the church she experienced nothing but acceptance and love from the believers even though they knew she was Muslim. When she heard the Word of God talking about liberty and healing it resonated in her heart.
She learned about the Holocaust, the killing of 6 million Jews by the Nazis.
“God forgive me, I did not know that I hated your people,” she prayed.
“He brought joy in my life,” she says. Her best friends now are Jewish Christians. “That is a privilege in my life.”